christmas soon!!!

ain't it cute?



i purposely decorate for my hamster, so they can feel the xmas is coming



merry hamxmas!!!

yes!

finally the exam end! which means my term end as well...
we will start our next term in new campus, lakeside campus...
now, wat i need to do, just find money, grab as much as i can!!! to pay for my next term...
money please wait for me...

wondering...

how fake is a person can be?
1- last time when we used to be together but now 180 degree change? i really dun understand?
2- after she told some of the group member that she is rich, some started to call her as baby....and grouping together
3-last time used to sms, but now sms but no reply..
4-do not care about u anymore, do not wait for u...
5- do not talk with u even if u are talking to her( wait for her reply)

wat the hell is this? i thought she is different. i told another fren she is better than the shit face but now only show me the real side?
i cant stand with those fake people face!
no thanks, how u treat me now i will remember!!!
we are not fren anymore...
i will not feel regret to delete u from my fren list cause u dun worth it..

wtf****

final exam started, my first subject is account. shit... first day already like that... i can't let it be like that. my account paper, i can't balance... shit. sure got less mark... haiz... i need to study harder for the second paper for 2moro...

thank you so much

thank you so much fren.... i know u all are supporting me..
don't worry.. i just feel that myself so pathetic.. everytime, i got betrayed from my fren. i just feel so bad cause i really treat them as my buddy but they did not think that. i can do nothing beside that. i know i need to learn how to choose fren from now on. i dun wan to be hurt. i will be strong to across all the sadness....
~new born soo yinn is here~xp

commis job

today, i am going to college at 7 am.. it is really early than my usual class. i drove here to prevent late. when i reach the restaurant, we are giving a short brief on all the sequence that we need to do. as a commis, we need to help the term 6 student but in a minor way. we can help them in certain part only, therefore we almost standing at the side all the way.
when the upselling section finish, we are called to serve the judges lunch. everyone avoid to go, finally, i am the one who go there...i pour the water, giving the napkin & clearing the table... it's damm heavy cause there are 7 dinner plates & 7 b&b plates... my hand got numb and tired after holding it for so long...
during the real service, suddenly mr.anshul want me as the one who mark the attendance of the guest(manager jobs). i stand at the main entrance and wait for the guest to come in. luckily, i just work as a manager for the previous class(2 days ago). i enjoy helping them...cause i can learn a lot and know more about the requirement from the judges...

now only i realise...

now, i can tell out the reason why i am separated from them(2 shit face)..
they not only good in acting but they are so horny as well...we need to be commis to help out those who exam today... caroline and xiang wei keep on hiding some where else... when we all are working,all of us at the restaurant side.. i found they are missing for quite long. when i go inside the kitchen, the answer reveal.. Mr. Anthony was there.. no wonder they stick inside the kitchen...cause they like mr. anthony.. so they keep on taking the opportunity to near to him... then i saw mr. anthony talking to them... very "hiaw"... damm annoying for me..i cant stand them... beside that, when we all need to clean the cutlery, they faster go out from the kitchen and stand at the restaurant there... wat the f***?
no need to work is it? next time, sure they will having a hard time during industrial training...

manager of the restaurant.

finally end of my service. i'm the manager of today, i need to prepare all the centerpiece for the class. i have no idea and finally end out with this. it is a bottle that wrapped by the wraping paper and the flower(rose) is make from plastic bag.
the lecturer like it a lot but the group member does seem to appreciate it. however, i have done it. it was the best i can give. i dun bother or care wat u all said anymore. TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.
i like this word so much. it suit me a lot.

happy moment... steamboat at umami

i do appreciate every single moment with u all. thanks god for giving me such precious friend that bring joy and fun to me. thank you my dearest fren!!!

end of thinking skill class

happy time~ reunion life after vi

stay overnight at kl plaza

first time in my life i stay overnight in kl plaza for nothing... actually, i followed my sister there. she needs to accompany her friend there.
the room is damm big. it is a condo style of house to rent. i just followed or else my sis will be alone in a big room.

sat: lakeside campus tour

i feel so stupid cause i need to go back to college just for the lakeside campus tour. our gathering time should be 10.30, however, i followed my brother car therefore i reached super early. i reach around 9am. have almost 2 hours to spend there. i went to library and play facebook and watch movie while waiting.

i went down to the gathering place at 10.45. still a lot of people haven reach yet. i saw someone that i dun really like but i have to pretend nothing. just did not talk to her. i followed the trip there and i feel damm boring. although, they say the campus is damm big with 5.5 acre of land, but i still feel that um is bigger than it despite they told us this land is bigger than it.

they told us that we will have 1 abd half hour for the tour however, not even an hour, we end our tour cause they construction still working on it. every places we just have a look and some places they just mention but did not bring us to walk there. haiz...

new hope

hope everyday is a new day. let's forget all the sadness and begin a brand new day.
i dun wan to be affect by anyone that not worth it. learning how to forgive..
suddenly one song come into my mind.

let the rain come down and wash away my tear.
let it fill my soul and drown my fears
let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun
a new day has come!!!

hope i can really do it... gambatte!!!
thanks all my fren who support me along the way...
i really appreciate it.... thank u...

mistrustful!!!

yesterday, brian come near to me while the judges watching all the mv once more to make an evaluation for the mv. by the way, i agree some how what he did said to me. however, i know he is trying to protect himself and say it is my fault... i did not feel angry cause i know that he is trying to rebuilt the atmosphere. although he blame is my temper, but i am agree with him.. this all thanks to the shit face. both bitches knew acting very well... they kind of enjoy making fun around? she go to tell the other people for wat?
brian said that my video thing having problem. he said that my mv put a lot of effect inside. that's time which actually i call that 2 bitches to see what wrong inside my video and they din even said anything on my video...here now they said my one not nice at all...ok, then fine. i dun feel that i will going to say sorry to them which i ady do once. brian told me i am changing. i told him that i am not changing but actually i am a hot tempered person. i am like a volcano, once burst out, will need a long time to recover. watever they are trying to blame i dun really care. i just feel that this kind of mistrustful fren should not in my list. cause i dont know when i will be hurt by them again. this is not the first time. i need to get alone and finding for my new fren which can be trust. i never hope much. just one!

never think that our video will win this!!!

after queenie tell me that she saw others video, she told us that v got no chance to win. my video still ok. but they still stick to their video. ok.... the end will be ko...bye 20 marks....u are going to enter 6 feet underground....

fuck off....

i really feel damm piss off now... can anyone come and tell me what the hell is going on? i really get headache for this... i really wan to tell them fuck off... at first, there is no one doing the video for our moral assignment... i am the one who the beginning, eveyone like dun care about the project.now,in the middle of the way to progress the video, suddenly the shit face like wan to become the leader. if u wan to do leader, just tell me. i will let u go ahead. dun ever come and show me the shit face. i really hate her. she keep on saying that she dun know how to angry but i can see her acting in front of us. "so call dun know how to angry." huh, who said so. i can see her acting good in front of all of us. i almost can give her the award ady.

today:
a few things really make me feel upset. since no one is editing the video, so i said no matter what i will edit one set as the back up. suddenly xiang wei and carol call kennedy to edit as well. ok, i am fine if he willing to help cause he is not involve actually. i continuing to edit my video. here come the submission day. my one ady finish. i told them, worse come to worse, i still got a back up. suddenly, without our knowledge, they keep on saying that they wan to submit their video cause their video editing by kennedy,brian, xiang wei, carol and wilson. if their video is nice, i am fine however their video like jumping scene and keep on black out.not following the sequence. after the group 4 people look at it, they prefer my video. before this, they said that they will let queenie to decide cause she is the main character. what the hell now? when queenie said she prefer my video, they said they are going to vote now. brian told me that he will depend on the voting. if voting, for sure we will use their video cause they got so many people. queenie & the group 4 member told me that they sure win, this is not fair. after all, i just pass on my cd to them and i dun wan to care bout it ady. stick to them, whether they wanna to win or lose. i dun care. later the shit face go to tell everyone that i wan to be self-minded and stick to my video. now depend on them.

*however, i really feel upset cause i spend a few day to do all this. i even walk from suriamas to college(15 min) at 1 am. now, all my work gone. if their one is nice will be different story. too bad!!!!!!!
what thing that i had learn from here, do not work hard with this kind of group member, or else ,all ur work also useless. no matter how hard u do, they cant see & will said that u decide everything.

omg....

omg. i really feel that i'm running out of time. i have a bunch of assignment to do and now suddenly come to my mid term assessment. pooh. i need to do my assesment for bed making on the coming wednesday, however there are only 10 minutes given to do the whole bed. i just practice out and i had use the time more than that. i finished my bed around 12-13 minutes. haiz. the marks will only give until the 10 minutes. this really make me nervous. shit. i should do more practice on this. and now only i realise that i need to do moral and front office assessment tommorrow. how do i divide my time? the following day, i need to do some shooting at night and i need to go home early and take my video cam here. issh... how?

this thing really make me feel piss off...

what the hell is it? i really don't understand. is it their real attitude reveal or what else? how come they like to do something to hurt me?what hell is it?
isn't it we are friend? or just i'm the one who treat you as my friend?
i really feel seriously piss off with this. if you want to become the leader, just go ahead. i'm forced to do all this but since you are not obey to me, how about i elect you as the leader so you can do whatever you want. don't come and show me your shit face. really feel that you are so fate. like 2 sided person who is now reveal the part underneath the mask! sometime you are good and sometimes you really make me feel piss off. i learn a precious lesson from you. i would not believe you anymore. i will set a border in between you all from me so i would not get hurt and feel annoyed easily. if you enjoyed like this, why should i suffer for you? therefore, this is the best way to protect myself.thanks for your stupid attitude!i would not treat you as good as last time. i will revenge what you had did to me!

feel piss off!!! issh......

today we having meeting with group 4 about the moral project. we having the meeting and lunch together. while i'm eating, i try to explain wat we need to do to the group 4 members. then ,carolyn and xiang wei stand up and tell me that they are going to change their cloth first. ok, then find. i'm continuing my explaination to the group 4. when i'm finish. i rush inside the locker area and change my cloths. after that i was going inside the girl's locker area. then i saw xiang wei and carolyn there with yuen ling. i put on my head and my scart. then i wanted to go toilet. suddenly xiang wei say bye bye venice, i started to feel piss off. i told back. yes, both of u always leave me and say bye bye to me. when u really wait for me? then i went in the toilet and shut the door loudly. i do not care how they feel but i relly feel piss off. when i came out from the toilet, they are still there and try to wait for me. i pretend i do not know they are waiting for me. i jsut go out and one. carolyn went out first then the door close and i just kick the door and the door was loud. then i walk asap. i do not want to wait for them. they know i was angry and not dare to near me after that. the question is cant they wait? is just a while. this is not the first time. i feel like i have been left behind. this fucking feeling which i hated so much.

30/10/2009

worse thing come to me today. i never expected what had happened today. my mickey passed away. i feel very sad cause he is too small and not to suffer like this. i only know this after work in sz and it is around 11 smtg. my dad told me that my dog has passed away today. of course i asked him wat happened? then he told me that he been torture by the big dog at the road when he go out and piss outside. my parents was busy preparing the thing to sell therefore, they did not know my dog was murdered by the dog outside. according to my dad, mickey die in very brutal way which his bone was split into 2 parts. i can feel the pain when i know this from my dad.sorry mickey.I'M SO SORRY.. sorry.sorry.sorry. that i did not protect u. rest in peace mickey. hope u will get a better owner in the coming life. i will pray for u. pls forgive me

having class after 4 hours gap

it's really a boring day. as usual, i went to college at 7 smtg. having a class at 8.30am. after that class, we have to wait for 4 hours for the other class. haiz. really wasting our time. life really full with wastage!

trust!!!

i'm having a practical class yesterday, but smtg happen on the same day. we have shrimp cocktail as the appertizer and main course will be roasted chicken with gravy.
we do learn a lot on this class however, while we helping the chef doing the dessert, our chicken got stolen. i did not know who is the thief but i'm sure is one of our group member. i feel this is really nonsense because everyone have one whole chicken extra from the serving. why the people still do not appreciate with what they have? i feel so sad because i have put my trust to them but this is what i got. should i trust or alert on them? by the way, i should curse the thief!!!

omg....

all the assignment throw to my face now... like a mountain that blocking my view. moral studies, thinking skill and now event as well...

what is going on?

i really dun understand, why all the public transport having such so call "GOOD" service? everytime i went to the the stupid transport, in average 10 times, 8 times will not punctual... do they know what is punctuality stand for?

face optimistic as far as i could!!!

i did not know whether it is true or a legend. for me, i think it is quite true. when good thing come there must be a bad thing following, and otherwise. for me, good thing happen to me first then followed by bad thing. my results just out yesterday. everyone busy checking. my fren ask me to check as well. i got my results overall 16.07/20.00 . this consider not bad among all the class. i think i'm in the top 3 of the class. my best academic for term 1 is culinary and the worst results for computer class. i was hope to inform my parents to prove them that i can study well here, however, i got the bad news from them. they just got the medical report which they have make the check up last saturday. the results is my both parent having abnormal health. my mum got the bacteria inside the stomach which will cause cancerous when we din take care of it. she got it 9X higher than usual people. on the other hand, my dad report even worrying. he got high glucose contain in his blood stream and his cholesterol level was high. the cholesterol for LDL is high and the contain of trigliserol as well. omg!!! i never hope that this is really happen to both of them. where the doctor said probably my dad will got diabetes and cholesterol. my mum, she have to take medicine to control the bacteria .hopefully they can fight through this.

wat the hell????

omg. i need to study moral study, fine but the assignment we need to do...cant expected. it's a music video....haiz

real serving

i'm having a real serving yesterday. my serving sucks. if i'm the one who give the marks, sure i got fail. i forgot all the sequences!!! i have no guess, so i have invited 2 senior as my guess. they are kind and tell me all the mistake i had made and even tell me a lot of hidden thing such like how the marks given. it is good but bad at any side. anyway, i'm feel super thank you to those senior who came for my serving yesterday with sincere.

school start!!!

it's an alert. early morning have to come to college. second term start. first day to college, everyone cant even recognice me because i had change my hairstyle. i was going to college earlier than the class started. i'm sitting at the student lounge for so long but no one saw me there until i sound to call one of the girl only they realise that's me.

now i got a new name!!! not mummy, not anything bad but MANNEQUEN!!! wat a lame name???they said i look like a doll now..

picture of clubbing nite!!!

ivy ady ko