Forgive & Forget

it's been a long time that i didn't make any post in my blog. i hope that my blog only fill with the happy memories however, i don't think it may works. it's a really hard time for me. i didn't what had i do wrong or what else did i do make you all hate me that much.i did not joined you all but who are you all? can you all stop doing something bad. is it fun to back stabbing or making bad rumors about others is fun to you? it's hurts!!!

i do not know since when it really bother me so much. no matter how i said i don't care it's a lie. it hurts. i do not hope you all treat me as your buddy but please a least do not come to me. do you think i'm a nerd? or it's fun to use others as your stairs to make you reach your way? i hate you all. you all are really bad. coming to me just for the notes and tips. what else? i try to ignore the bad feeling but it's really bother me so much. whenever, i think of it. i can feel my heart is tearing. you all like using a knife slicing it 1 by 1.

anyway, it's my end of the terms. i don't wish to see you all after that. i will treat this as a night mare. a really long night mare. wish to delete such a bad memories from my brain but without this, i wouldn't know what is my good or happy memory. perhaps this is the motive that god create this which to learn me to learn to forgive and forget. wish i could do it!!! please cross the finger for me.