zzz.......

i feel freaking tired now... i really need a deep breath.


1-i study on weekday
2-i work at weekend(my schedule completely full)
3-feel so stress and no where to release

where am i now?

study everyday from monday to friday, but i need to face those people that really fake to u. u have to act to them. i feel my mind is going to burst out. i just wanted to be real self. i cant imagine how cruel and bad they are? now i was in serious mentally abuse. i cant know wat the hell they think. if i do something bad to u, u can make it back to me but i din. y i have to face this kind of condition?
my class got 13 people excluded me but no one i can believe.this really make me sick..
arika,jasmine,mani, adrian-kepochi group(if i believe in them, for sure i ruin my life. especially jasmine- always look down on people. what u think u r? u r just same like us- human being. only know how to play boycott in the society. just stick to ur gang. or else u will be smack by people.)
then, my old buddies- x.wei and carol. i used to treat them good but they betrayed my trust. since arika and jasmine know that carol is rich and now they treat them in a different way. wat the hell is this? come on. eventhough she is rich but she would not give it to u,ok..
indon gang- i thought tat alicia got nothing with me but it seem like i'm wrong. i ask her whether can borrow her notes to photocopy however she is like keep on saying this and tat. then when the class over, x.wei ask her to borrow she said yes. ok, well. i guess i understand her action.
i just have to stand on my own feet. have to be very strong to defeat all this.

on the other hand, i need to work to support my school fees. i cant burden up my parent. i know they spend a lot for my fees. i will try to earn money by my own to pay the fees. therefore, i need to sacrifie my time to work on sat and sun. this few week, i work from 10 to 10. i feel y whole body was in freaking tired condition. from mentally to physically also bloody tired. can i have some break?
can u all stop torturing me.
can u all make my life easy- not as difficult like now?
i need break.
i need break.
i really need a break.
i cant support anymore.
let me have a good rest. can i?