~G0h TuNg~

oh. it's a chinese special day. my mum told me that this celebration is more precious than chinese new year. however, it fall on the weekday. so my aunt ady make it earlier on sunday.

another special day for today.it's IVY LEONG's birthday. wish her have a happy birthday.may all her dreams come true. we can't celebrate for her cause everyone was busy and it's a special day today, everyone will celebrate with their family.

anyway, i will wish everyone happy and may all the luck come to us!!!

Finished my 2nd intern

i never expect that i'm training alone make the internship more valuable and precious for me. i don't need to care of others or take care of anyone.i feel that it was more hard and turf than training with friends but on the other way, i could learn more. anything don't understand, i'll ask and they willing to tell.

in this internship, i took shook restaurant as my intern place but actually i'm applying for another places but too bad. because of the terms and conditions that the college offer, they limited our spaces and told us last minutes that other places is full and only open this application for me. with no option, i had to take it.

i had my intern in the kitchen first, followed by f&b service at shook. my training end by intern at the bar. amongst it, i really like bar. feel free and easy. i think that i will apply for front office or lounge as my occupation some day.

New journey begin..

my internship will start 2moro..hope it will be a fun time for me..

come to the end...of Term 4

owh. i really hope that my diploma will end early, so i can leave those 'chienne' and started to earn my money. however, i still have 9 months to go. i need to go to internship from this october to december. how will it be? i really wonder... cant await...

whatever you think!!!

i think i had do my best. what you all think, i leave it to you. i don't ever want to bother. you may think i am a transparent human in front of you and there you will be served next time. i can only use a word "chinne" to describe you...

heart 2 heart

is it true that what you do will back to you? i did not do bad to others but it's really annoyed that come the blame to me.however,it does not block me from finding true friend. i had my best buddy from form 6. they showed their sincere heart without realise. although we were separated to all around malaysia but we definately find each other when they are back.16 of september is carmen's birthday.we had reunion the night before at a mamak stall. here come ivy brought her homemake cake to celebrate carmen's birthday.

from here,i learned that friendship is not the value of how much you spend and also how much you get but is how sincere you show.

unforgetable

on raya holiday,my parents planned to see my sister at tanjung karang. we make a trip with my with my cousin.however, my sister not free. we just pass the thing to her then we went to eat seafood. we went to sekinchan for seafood. then,our nightmare started. here comes thr air-cond started to sound.it is sound so loud. finally, we decide not to on the air-cond. we went to sg.buloh and stop at my cousin house. then,we went to eat dinner. when we went back that's time,we smell something very smelly.it's smell from the engine. we decide that go back as soon as possibe cause we know that no foreman will work on public holiday. we realise the dynamo for the car is not working,therefore we can't stop or else we can't start back the car. with the hardwork,we find the road without traffic light and jam. when we almost reach our house,the car broke down. the engine couldn't start anymore and all the gas around.dad finally realise that the water for the car is empty without alerting us at the meter area. it spoil near to our house area. me and mie jie walk back to my house to get a car to bring others home. dad succesfully called a foreman to come and help.we decided to move the car to our house and monday only we will send to the repairing shop.

lost=bad luck?

8/9/10_
is my last to college before raya holday however,i lost my phone pen. i had 2 phone pens before this but 1 broken. now, the one left is my last pen but i had lost it. my one and only pen. i went to find the phone pen.it cost me 10bucks per pen.omg..damm expensive. i have no choices. rather expensive than had an ugly hole at the phone.

sympathy

i waited at ktm like usual. i have no idea with the fxxking train.keep on delay. while waiting,i saw an accident happened. i saw this chinese man fell from his motor.then,the malay went to scold him. the chinese man speechless there.may be his fault but his motor damaged.his hand bleeding but he still trying to fix his motor. he picked all his motor broken pieces. after a few time he try to light on his motor,he back to his way. i feel sympathy on him. but my luck not good as well..i waited an hour for the stupid train.

aSseSsMenT...

i hate assessment so much. who invented this exam or assessment? i will definately crusify him or her. however, this is how our life's go. i just had my french paper. unbelievable, i had 50/54. unexpected marks. actually i can have 52. it's my fault. careless mistake.on other hand, my econ test make me fail badly. i only get 25/40. i know this mark really bad but i really have no idea with what she is trying to teach us espeacially her slang. too much indian ascent in her english. u can imagine what is "prodek". she is actually mention about PRODUCT. sigh..

~LoOng LoOng b!r+hDay~

unexpected message arrive. my phone ring and i look at the sms content, it's loong hui. wow, he like disappear for quite a while where we couldn't contact him. even when we contact him, he will not reply or even pick up his phone. he ask whether i'm free or notcause he said he want to go sing karaoke. he said he will be free until tuesday{his birthday} after a while, i discuss with ivy and see whether where to celebrate his birthday surprisely. here come my idea to go steamboat buffet at sunway area. everyone agree. we told Loong hui bout the price. he did not even know that me and ivy will treat him that day. on the day itself, me and ivy went to the steamboat area earlier in case no place for us. we get the table and eat while waiting. half an hour later, finally our speacial one come. i almost can't recognise him. he got thinner and his hair is long now. we eat until our stomache almost going to explode. super full. suddenly, me and loong have the idea to have soft drinks. we want to change places to have coke. i went to pay for the bill while he take ice- cream. he did not realise at all. then,we continue to eat like usual. when we going to move, he said let's pay the bill. only that time, i mention to him that we already pay for his bill. surprise for him. then, he said he will treat us for the drinks. wow. another unexpected thing happen again. Loong treat us.. yes!!! what a memorable reunion and birthday celebration...

after that, we went to a mamak stall and stay there for the drinks. this time, ivy invern another weird word... LO HON BEN.. haha.. don't know where she get this lyric from. i really have no idea with her cantonese sometimes. but this is where we get our fun time...

annoying servive

what the fxxk with streamyx at my area?when i called only the line be better? mayb i will be kind of bitchy to them cause i had make my call many times to get them.. but this is very terrible where i had disconnected for a week. i pay for it. why no service? finally come to a man to fix the line where he does not do anything but the line getting better. he said probably there is an error encounter due to the line repairing near my house..he called me to observe first.if anything,call him back.

damm bitch

wat problem have i coupe with u? this is long long time ago.. u does not want to friend with me then fine...whenever u need help ,u will come.. i just want to inform u and u give me a shit face..damm u... i had make my best to be kind with u and u behave like this..yea..i know wat to do..whatever i know i just keep my mouth shut that's all.. no way i will be kind to u anymore... that's the way u prefer..

new frens

as the tine being,i didn't join the bitch group..i felt alone but i think this way will better than suffer if looking at the stupid face,right...i did join a malay group from other group...i felt my life easier to talk with them...at least they didn't show off and asked me along whenever they go...

vacation on 3 land

this is my very first time on a cruise...i felt so excited.. i cant imagine how the big cruise like this can flow on the sea.. brilliant idea and creater...

i went to 4 days 3 nights trip from singapore to phuket then langkawi and finally back to singapore... really a nice experience for me... i ate non stop where the food there are all buffet style..i never skip a meal there..therefore,i gain weight..about 3kg...omg..but i think worth it..

holiday after holiday...

i'm so happy that i could went to a vacation after i'm back from internship... this is my second time to singapore after 12 years...i think that singapore is much more better than malaysia...no bribing and their public item are provided everywhere...wish malaysia could be that good...

25/06/2010

reach the time that i need to leave this place.. feel uneasy and unwilling.. all my memories here... i dump all the sadness and bring all my happiness home.. however, when i saw anna crying, i feel so sad.. i'm not sure whether when i will meet her or even see her again... unless i went to visit her at sarawak...

new friend..

just because of some stupid person who play a fool behind,i feel i'm get eliminated... they are super childish... but all this lead me a new learning...there is a rainbow after the rain is true..no pain no gain... just because i'm alone,i had my true friend which worth to gather and gang around... i can feel thier sincerity and thier kindness.. they really take care of me and i did care their feeling as well..however,some one got jealous because of this... i just ignore whatever she do cause it is pointless...do what you want...i will remain happy and let u envy...

old friend visit

it is my precious time that my old friend,secondary schook friend come to langkawi to visit me...although they only come for 3 days but i still have lot's of fun with them... we went cable car and water sport together..finally i got my chance to play parasailing and banana boat at the same time... it's only cost me 35+7=rm42... super cheap price... we can only get this price cause we have 14 person who play...what a nice day that i could not forget...

old friend visit

it is my precious time that my old friend,secondary schook friend come to langkawi to visit me...although they only come for 3 days but i still have lot's of fun with them... we went cable car and water sport together..finally i got my chance to play parasailing and banana boat at the same time... it's only cost me 35+7=rm42... super cheap price... we can only get this price cause we have 14 person who play...what a nice day that i could not forget...

what's going on?

from best friend become unknown person.. i just feel scary.. i did not do anything but there is some misunderstanding..i'm not sure what u think... however all this come in sudden..pls let me have some preparation,pls.. take it or leave it... finally i choose leave it...what you do are none of my business...

entering the industrial world...

19/4/2010
my first of training...
we went to the pelangi (HR department)~ waiting for our training to be start. i got the fo(front office) work first.then only change to hk(housekeeping)... then, our hr department worker who in charge of u bring us walk around the resort. then, mr. azhar bring us to the quarters. we got into the room F7. the room was freaking dirty and full of dust. we need to clean it. as the results, the water turn to black in colour while cleaning. we need to change everytime we wipe. after that we went out for dinner and returning the rental car. we start working on the second day. i got into business centre first then following by operator... after that, reception.. cant wait to learn!!! enjoy.. dun think too much!!

first online in langkawi...

i reach langkawi at 18/4/2010...
i feel myself very lucky cause i get my new fren tracy( also new trainee from taylor's = as me).
he know another guy from dh32.. fortunately, tat guy taking the same plane with us. we reached langkawi on time same time(around 5 smtg). that guy name= joo chuan(jc).
he call his fren to fetch us from the airport. we know the other 2 guy from dc32, hon zhong & soimon....
me and tracy decided to take the same hotel as them since we dun have the accommodation at the first day,so we took tanjung malie. it costs us around RM70 per room with attached bathroom.
we went out for dinner. the first dinner for us in langkawi, MCDONALD. they said this is the one and the only mcdonald in the island.

counting down the day i leave...

just a few day to go.. i will be going to langkawi soon.. i miss my family, all my friends and everything.. i know that i feel unwilling to go far from my house but in another way, i will be learning a lot of stuff from there. i hope it's worth. till now i still haven't prepare anything or pack my luggage. hope my luggage wont be overload.

family day

12/4/2010~ i went to genting with my family... at first, i was thinking of 3 months away from home, so, i should spend more time with my family... therefore, i asked my mum, " are u going to genting 2moro". she said yes. so, i was thinking of follow. suddenly she said that dad had some complimentary ticket for 2 person to dine in at be a star restaurant, a room to stay, a RM20 voucher to buy souvenir and 2 ticket for the show(dazzle). the complimentary ticket only valid till 15 of the month. then, i asked bro want to follow or not. if he is going, i will follow cause now i'm in a legal age to enter casino( just for food). finally bro said yes. early morning, we waked up and prepared to go genting. actually i went there get the free food. then suddenly, i had a crazy idea. i call my dad to check in the room for day use. we check in the room for rest there not for overnight. although it feel like wasted but better than throwing the offer. therefore, dad get the free meal at be a star for me and bro and check in the room for us. me and bro walked around and finally stay inside the room. the room is so nice,however, our main idea to have the room for leg hot spring but too bad, not bath tub available at RESORT HOTEL. suddenly, we had a crazy idea to do it at some other way.

~resort hotel view~

~hotel room toilet~

~crazy idea by my bro...~

we had our dinner inside of casino, finally return to home. we are so unlucky cause the dazzle ticket no show available on that day, or else, dad wanted us to go. it will be a nice show.
the gift from the RM20 voucher.. this thing worth RMM29.90.. had to paid extra RM9.90

1st final year paper....

i just finish my 1st paper. i hope i could pass with flying colour. i think it might be dream for me. i study at the eleven hour, how could i get a good result? anyway, i just do my best.

~good luck~

haiz. 2moro have accounting paper!!!! i think i'm going to burn the account book into ashes and drink it.

what's wrong?

i dun understand what is inside of me. i really curious now. i saw my ex-colleague blog. she seem so horny but still a guy like her. i feel that she is seriously a bitch but still someone love her. she is now with my assistant manager. i really wonder what so attractive about her? she only know how to be emo and bitching all the way. i dun understand what are guy thinking. such bitch also wanted to grab. wish u luck,hope ur gf dun go out and date for another guy!!!

5/4/2010

haiz.. a lot of thing to do for the industrial training.. the hotel training there require a copy of my medical check up report. i start fasting at 11pm yesterday night. i went to bp lab at kuchai lama. at first i told the girl that i need a standard medical check up. she keep telling me that the standard 1 cost rm300++... i got a big shock. then i keep asking her for the cheaper check up. finally she offer me a normal medical check up with extra tumor check up at rm140.
i remember my mum told me that she check up for rm120, so i told the nurse over there to let me think of it first. after i search and think, i had make a decision to to do my check u there. i chat with the nurse at bp lab. she measure my blood pressure, she said it is normal but once she took my blood, i saw my blood like bloody black.. what problem with me, huh? i dun care. just wait for the report now...

~~~reading the blogzzz~~~

i'm having an assessment for front office this morning and having a math class later on, however, the math class had canceled. i look at the time and i feel lazy to walk back to lcs for ktm. so, i planned to stay at college until the bus service that available on 2.i still got 1 hour to go. then, i went to the computer lab. as usual, i open my facebook while waiting. i wonder why, i feel wanted to write a blog, therefore, i open blogger. since i'm so free, i open some interest blog title in my list. i read their blog and suddenly, i saw ivy's blog which is touching me. she post what happen on my birthday. i really feel every single words she said in her blog.

eventhought she is having migraine that day but she still celebrate for me.
some more, loong was coming from far place.

i feel so happy to be their fren. LOVELY, TRUSTED & BEST FREN EVER FOR ME!!!!

something about myself!!!

haha.. after a long war with those bitch, i realsie that i got better score for my study. i got 1 wrong over all the question... erm.. not bad... i think this is god give me as the reward of being suffer for so long. yes. i make it. hehe.

happy go lucky

1. the way i am now.
2. free from comparing.
3. freedom
4. do as want
5. real self
6. happy
7. thinking differently.

i take care of myself and always protect myself from getting hurt. therefore, i make my own shelves from being attack.

after the bloody situation tat create a tense environment for me and another group member. i dun care wat they always said. they gather and look me like alien. it's all up to them. i know that the keppochi group like to make so story out and gossip around. but the funny thing ever, is some one believe. i dunno whether i should say they are stupid or wat else.

anyway, i got a big shock when i heard some news from my fren yesterday. perhaps it will be a good news for me. we will be changing group after we back from industrial training. i dunno it's true or wat. but at least i dun need to stay with them which always cheating and gossiping around. if it is real. it will be the best news i god from lakeside campus.... haha

therefore i said, happy go lucky!!!!

i wish i could do it...

now come to the end... after a long term of being busy, here come the 10th week. our final term assessment are all around and waving their hand not far away from us. i wish i could score a better score this term. as a gift for myself and never let those idiotic human look me down. i do all by my own and stay my own.. i do whatever i want... all alone.. i dun care what others said anymore... THAT"S ME>>>TRUE ME!!!

~another day in paradise~with u guys

it is my third time went to clubbing. i went there with weng kit, ivy, merie and loong hui. unexpected, loong hui got his permission to clubbing. yeah, he is no longer a clubbing virgin...
we ordered a bottle of chivas, rm312.20 per bottle with 4 mixer.

1 chivas can only bring 4 person, however, it's a ladies night, so we went through for free.we went there round 11pm and we leave around 3 smtg, where the club closed. since ivy and merie were drunk, we decided to sit nearby until they awake a bit. finally we decided to stay at a mamak stall until the police not around cause we worried about road block... i reached home around 5 smtg in the morning and only sleep for an hour for tomorrow class. i did enjoyed the night where i shout and dance all the night. thank u so much. i know tat u all are my trusted fren ever...

ivy with her dress...

me and loong hui( not a clubbing virgin anymore!!!)

all hand with cocobabana's chop!!!

loong hui and weng kit

ivy and loong hui

merie and weng kit

merie , me and ivy

me and ivy

ivy and merie

it's time to awake

it's happen one day when i view my facebook. i am bored. i view every single video that my fren had posted. suddenly, there is a video that make me awake and really feel deep inside of me. why should i care about them so much as my best fren said.. their purpose is making me sad and unhappy. why i make myself suffer for so long. no point of waiting something are no longer urs come back to u.

this video bring me realise that life should be happy. the moral i got through this video that i should be happy cause HAPPINESS only consist my true life. what point that i stay at the same point and looking backward. i know it is suffer and arouse me too much, however, everything will be fine if i look to another dimension. just do my best and i will see all the result at the end.

when i'm in a super emo time, i'm so glad and i should be proud. i know who is the real friend that i really have. true fren is not about the number but those who are really take care of u and help u to go through it. i'm glad to have such fren... thank u so much...

hunger for food

after all the long way, i hope we really make it. i hope tat we could have our reunion buffet somewhere... yum yum

yoohoo~

i know, all my best buddy and sincere one always behind me. back me up whenever i need them. i really feel so proud of knowing each of u. especially all my form 6 friends. u all the best!!!

taylorian???

as a student of taylor, should i be proud or not at all? after more than half year i have been studying here, i get to realise and know more. all the taylorian are fish monger. opps, i shouldn't said all, cause still some minority are kind. however, my summarise for taylor's, all the student SUCK.. always come to u with some intention behind of it.. wat the hell? where is the sincere one? i couldn't believe how different that the student in taylor compare to secondary student. their intention are totally can be define as the worst i ever see...

is it true?

i'm not sure whether wat happen this few week or should said this few months are created by the shit face.. everytime, the thing tat go to her, she will be twising the words and changing it to her version. maybe the end of my frenship happen because of her. wow, she is great.. she could do everything like tat.i think she want to be popular.. she is going to be popular soon.. no matter how popular are u right now. just take care of ur result shit face.. 2nd term is worse than the 1st one!!! i dun wan to bother bout u.. do as u like...

something irritate me!!!

just a compliment, but finally wat is the words come to me:

stupid idiot! now ur phone very great arr??? so old version somere.. u still dare to critisize my phone not good!!! if u say tat, please look at ur own phone 1st!!!

i know this words are throw to me.. i did mention tat the nokia n97 not really good. brian is the one who emntion it first, however, after a week, i saw this bloody hell words from the shit face facebook... wat the hell is this? this is the freedom of me!!! i mention it because my cousin use it b4. he said tat this phone really good in function but always hang. therefore, i said tat the phone is good in function but not really good in use. y dun u buy the iphone or blackberry? the prices is almost the same. after a week, this shit face post it on facebook... she wanted to tell everyone or wat else? excuse me, can i know how old r u??? u dun think urself is a kids and needed to be pampered by everyone??? no way... always act cute but so sorry to say, u r not... this is just a small advise... u just take it or leave it. y u need to tell everyone and twist the words tat i said. i don't know which words should i use for u, childish or so jealousy...if possible, u earn ur own money and then u buy the phone buy ur own... no use to use ur parent money and buy the phone and trying show it off....
i dun care wat u write or wat u say. do watever u wan. go ahead... i'll wait for the karma...

smtg tat pissed me off...

in the early of the day, i realize i woke up early. i went into facebook and looking for my fren replying me, however, there is smtg shit tat i pissing me off. there is a post by the fucking bitch tat wrote "no more friendship between us,,, is the end!!!" wat the hell? i really dunno why they like to blame others.. din think of themselves? everything have to be posted to facebook. just wan to be the innocence 1? haha. tat is so lame, the victim become the murderer and the murderer became victim? she wrote there is no more patient for me( although she din mention my name), however i know she mean it.. she wrote that i blame and scold her every time. hey, come on. everyone tat see our conversation also know tat i din do anything to u but u suddenly like become the baby, trying to get attraction and being pampered here. i do not know whether u did by ur own or u are being teach by someone else. every time, i saw u all gather around, for sure tat u r trying to do something bad and telling other (keppochi) tat i'm bullying u. wat the fuck? u do something rude to me and come the blame. i ady feel enough of it, and now, i learn how to be patient and not to tell every one like u did. u want to add pepper or salt or even vinegar, ur decision. i dun wan to mind or care anymore. i just want to have a good rest and free from all the rumors. luckily, brian is supporting me. thanks brian.. u r the special one. u would not talk bad about others in the class. although, u r a bit weird but u still a different 1.

you~damm bitch!!!

what the hell are u?u r trying to show me tat u r so mean or revealing the unrevealed? i really cant get it.. i'm the leader of the feedback group, however, u r trying to do something and like ignoring me. tat's fine. but, dun tell me something stupid after that. blah~ said that my phone got problem. to prove u, i ady try to call with my house phone and my parents hand phone. u bitch, some more tell me with very rude tone.. ok, u r the one who started to treat me like that,do not respect me and now i will re-pay it back to u. u r trying to be mean to me, why not me?

~golden key birthday~

yesterday was my birthday. it's my 21 years old birthday, however, once the clock reach 12, there were only few of them wishes me. i was waiting for someone else to wish me. even weng kit have a sms from singapore. where is my malaysian buddies?i'm quite disappointed.

on that day, i was going to college as usual. once i reached, arika came along and wished me. of course i wished her back cause we are having the same birth date. after that only some of the classmate wishes me. i thought our class ended by 4 something since we have replacement class, however, our replacement class cancel. our math class only took 1-2 pm. i finished the math paper earlier, therefore, i'm so free. i send a sms to loong hui and asked him whether wan to go out 'lepak' with me since he is so free. he took very long time to reply me:

loong hui sms:o yea ho. someone birthday today. haha. but ivy not free wo. not fri meh? today ur family celebrate with u ka?

i reply:haiz... mo leong sam.. never mind lo. i lepak myself.

loong hui sms:aiyo so kesian meh? lepak where o. sunway a? ur family not celebrating with u meh?

i reply:haiz..my parent dun k bout our birthday.. where got celebrate wan?pity me... all form 6 fren mo leong sam... dun wan to celebrate for me.. so, i need to lepak my own lo... haiz... so sad.. if i din sms someone now, for sure this people also forget me ady... haiz...

loong hui sms:where got like that. i free sure come out with u de ma..

i reply: i think i will going to midvally. wan to follow?

loong hui sms:what time?

i reply:i dunno... now i'm going to take ktm. dunno wat time only can reach..

loong hui sms:errm, i need to ask my mum first..

[i reach midvalley and have a piece of cake and ice blended green tea at secret recipe]

i finished all my stuff. finally loong hui reply:

loong hui sms:ei, u still at midvalley?

i reply: yup.. you r not coming right? if u not coming, i will sit for a little while then i will go...

loong hui reply: o... ya lo.. my mum la. ask me to change curtains last minute. sorry a bday girl. then later u got programme? go home and sleep a? haha.

loong hui sms: y don't wanna reply me? angry meh?T.T i also very kesian one.cny my mom say have to change to curtains wo. fri i free. tat day come out how?

i reply:c how.. no mood now...wat should i reply?

loong hui sms: don't like that la~~ i'll make it up to u. i promise. be safe on ur way home a.:)

i reply: i'm really disappointed. not because of u.. dun worry.. some of my fren not sending a wish to me. even weng kit at singapore also wish me yesterday night.

i took ktm back to my area.as usual, i walk home. my phone silent for a few hour. i went out to buy prepaid card reload for my phone. on the way home, i saw ivy's car there. i thought she was going to do treatment for her hair. this really make me even hurt cause she told me that she is not free. i walked back to my house. i watch the tv just like wat i do usually. suddenly, my dog keep barking. my dad said someone come to find me. when i go out from my house and i saw loong hui and ivy were here. they told me "surprise". only i realise that they have planned to cheat me.

loong hui keep on saying someone sms me and said i'm disappointing... he keep record every movement i did for the surprise purpose. i feel really touching. after tat, we went to have dinner together at cowboy steakhouse. we keep on candid on the camera until the table next to us keep looking at us. after dinner, we went back to my house to open the present. i feel really touching cause they gave me a bottle of perfume.

thank u so much my dear fren.thank u so much for the surprise*loong hui & ivy*
thank u so much for the present*loong hui*ivy*weng kit*
i really appreciate wat u all did to me..

prank?

i just reach college by my bro's car while my ass just reach the chair, suddenly navin come inside the class and tell us the class has been cancel. everyone did not believe him cause he always play a fool on people. everyone stay calm and then vj go find out. when he come back he tell everyone that the class has been cancel. wtf? i have no where to go. i just follow navin, vivien and remon and wait for the next class.

f & b service

this is the first time for me to serve in lakeside campus. however, i did not feel any nervous and scare this time. i was totally being free and just do my own thing slowly. it was really first time for me to feel tat. hope i will becoming more professional with my practical works.

zzz.......

i feel freaking tired now... i really need a deep breath.


1-i study on weekday
2-i work at weekend(my schedule completely full)
3-feel so stress and no where to release

where am i now?

study everyday from monday to friday, but i need to face those people that really fake to u. u have to act to them. i feel my mind is going to burst out. i just wanted to be real self. i cant imagine how cruel and bad they are? now i was in serious mentally abuse. i cant know wat the hell they think. if i do something bad to u, u can make it back to me but i din. y i have to face this kind of condition?
my class got 13 people excluded me but no one i can believe.this really make me sick..
arika,jasmine,mani, adrian-kepochi group(if i believe in them, for sure i ruin my life. especially jasmine- always look down on people. what u think u r? u r just same like us- human being. only know how to play boycott in the society. just stick to ur gang. or else u will be smack by people.)
then, my old buddies- x.wei and carol. i used to treat them good but they betrayed my trust. since arika and jasmine know that carol is rich and now they treat them in a different way. wat the hell is this? come on. eventhough she is rich but she would not give it to u,ok..
indon gang- i thought tat alicia got nothing with me but it seem like i'm wrong. i ask her whether can borrow her notes to photocopy however she is like keep on saying this and tat. then when the class over, x.wei ask her to borrow she said yes. ok, well. i guess i understand her action.
i just have to stand on my own feet. have to be very strong to defeat all this.

on the other hand, i need to work to support my school fees. i cant burden up my parent. i know they spend a lot for my fees. i will try to earn money by my own to pay the fees. therefore, i need to sacrifie my time to work on sat and sun. this few week, i work from 10 to 10. i feel y whole body was in freaking tired condition. from mentally to physically also bloody tired. can i have some break?
can u all stop torturing me.
can u all make my life easy- not as difficult like now?
i need break.
i need break.
i really need a break.
i cant support anymore.
let me have a good rest. can i?

first movie in 2010

i went to cinema at 1u after class with ivy to watch movie with loong. although loong said he will reach first but he is the last to reach. we watched case 39. although ivy told me that the movie is nice but i dun really think it is really scary. however, i cant deny that the effect in this movie is nice.

after we feed our temptation for our eyes is the time to feed our tempt to our stomach. we went around to search for some cheap and affordable food. finally, we found a italy pizza shop. we found that shop not so expensive. so, we went into that shop and eat our dinner there. we ordered for 1 large pizza,1 lasagna, 1 spagetti and 2 soft drinks. although the portion they provide is not in very big size, but we feel super full. everyone surrender and force to finish it. cant deny that the food there is rather cheap and nice. it only cost rm39 for the meal. everyone of us only cost rm13.

~results day~

our second day of school. our results out today. usually our results will only will get after 2 week of term start but this time is different. i'm so worry bout my result. i know my result would not fail but i just worry how the marks look like. i'm so nervous and prying to the god. finally i got my result. i got even better than my last term. this tahnks to my math. i did badly for my account and moral. of course, people that dun have moral, how to get high score in moral? haha

back to school day

18/01/10- first day of schooling after a long break (more than a month-longest break so far)
although today is my first day of term 3 however it is my first day to my new college(lakeside campus). seem everything had changed. the environment and also the classes. some new student and some retake course student here. as usual, i'm trying to forget wat had happen in term 2. i did talk to them but seem they are the one who away from me. i did not force. i will bring it on naturally. just try my best.
beside that, my new campus- the food damm expensive and provided us limited seat. i saw everyone quite enjoy the view of the lake and holding a lunch box sitting at the stair. it make me feel i'm in a university now. at last but not least, the buses they provide damm suck. the bus schedule provided,however, the bus does not arrive on time. just the first day, i saw everyone crowded and waited for the bus at the station. the bus was late. finally we saw a bus coming in but that bus will only go klang. so everyone wait for the second bus. the second bus came but this bus to bandar utama only. the bus stand getting more crowded. finally the bus back to lcs/suriamas/ mentari are here. however, only 1 bus, how this bus can fit for 100++ student. i try my best to go into the bus. luckily i got into the bus. some of them have to wait for the bus an hour later. wat a good memory i had for my first day of lakeside campus(lsc)

sawardika.....

i went to a trip during my holiday, feel excited cause this is my second visit to thailand after 5 year... i can feel the happines inside me.. however, this trip is only 3 days 2 night. of course it cant fullfish me. this is my first time followed my father to the massage centre. i understand why there is someone desperate for the service cause the massage really make u feel free just like floating in the air. beside that, if is rather cheap. it only cost RM26 for 2 hours. i did not spend mush at there cause the price are almost the same here. even malaysia can find the item almost that price. i just feel so sad cause i did not try the macdonald there. surprisingly, they selling mcpork. they said it taste quite nice. wat a regret for me.