mistrustful!!!

yesterday, brian come near to me while the judges watching all the mv once more to make an evaluation for the mv. by the way, i agree some how what he did said to me. however, i know he is trying to protect himself and say it is my fault... i did not feel angry cause i know that he is trying to rebuilt the atmosphere. although he blame is my temper, but i am agree with him.. this all thanks to the shit face. both bitches knew acting very well... they kind of enjoy making fun around? she go to tell the other people for wat?
brian said that my video thing having problem. he said that my mv put a lot of effect inside. that's time which actually i call that 2 bitches to see what wrong inside my video and they din even said anything on my video...here now they said my one not nice at all...ok, then fine. i dun feel that i will going to say sorry to them which i ady do once. brian told me i am changing. i told him that i am not changing but actually i am a hot tempered person. i am like a volcano, once burst out, will need a long time to recover. watever they are trying to blame i dun really care. i just feel that this kind of mistrustful fren should not in my list. cause i dont know when i will be hurt by them again. this is not the first time. i need to get alone and finding for my new fren which can be trust. i never hope much. just one!